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I hate myself. Not even listening to Sakanakushon helps right now. I kill every relationship. But I´m so scared of hurting someone, I´d rather die. I´m never going into therapy again. NEVER. I hate this guy for loving me. Guy of my dreams, yet I hate him and love him

Relationships

They feel superior, but are they?
I´m not that happy that´s for sure, but is it better having an illusional feeling of being happy?

The Canvas

I am a mosaique.
Shattered pieces collide into arrangements.
Don´t let them tell you what you can´t be.
But girl, show´em what you can be [...]

Let Inspiration spark, Exclamation....Mark!

[Urban Romantic City - The Canvas]

Daydreaming

There´s no chance I´ll ever meet you again but I´d give so much for it.
I bet you´ve returned to Berlin yet and I´ll never see you again.

My last hope is only daydreaming. I´m dreaming of seeing you and you´re recognising me. Unfortunately you´d never do so.

The lovliest Compliment

Today I had some duties to fulfill so I went to our little town, where there is no real space for shopping or having fun but only lots of older people and equally old houses, which are indescribably beautiful...


So I went into a small shop because I had time left before I could do what I wanted to do and there was a pretty old lady (clearly over 70) who was suddenly stumbling over a little table which was really flat and hardly noticeable.

"Oops", I said. "I would have fallen over the table too. It´s so hard to notice. I wouldn´t ever buy it hence."
The woman started smiling and said "Oh no, that was not the problem. I was just looking at how pretty you are and didn´t see the table. Such a beautiful, tall lady"
I fastly responded "Oh thank you, have a nice day".

I couldn´t lose my good mood this day. This was by far the most adorable thing a person has ever said to me.
I can´t believe it.

I AM HUMAN or extraterristrial idc

This world is annoying and I´m annoying for the world.
I sometimes hope to be leaving it soon.

No-one sees me as a real human being. That might be because I sometimes exaggerate doing stuff and seem a bit insane, but no-one ever took me serious and as a full-worthy human being with human feelings and problems but only as their entertaining machine.
And I´m not. I want to be human, human, human, goddammit!

My ugly face and all these agressions towards me steal any pieces of life that might be available for me.

The only thing I am is rubbish, unnecessary rubbish, that only might have to be removed.

I don´t want to bother the world anymore.

And I can´t even keep my resolutions one hour after the beginning of the new year.

There´s no "Happy New Year"